I, like many, many other people have a naturally anxious heart. When you really start to ponder on the subject you realize that in some way, shape, or form we all have anxiety. We all struggle with worry, doubt, and sometimes panic. Personally, and to my downfall, my anxiety rears its ugly head in the form of trust, or the lack thereof.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God”
You see my biggest fear in life is rejection. You’re probably thinking, “No kidding. Whose natural fear isn’t?” While I must side with you on your statement I should probably take it a little further and say I’m absolutely crippled by it. Now, I am well aware of the fact that many people do not and will not like me; It’s simply the way life goes. I’m in tune with reality but where I’m missing the connection is in spirituality and in truth.
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will guide you with My eye.”
Sure, I can sometimes walk the walk and mostly talk the talk, but when it comes down to it I’m just a terrified shell of a man. My past suggests that history will always repeat itself, especially in the area of relationships. My goodness if we had the time…
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
II Corinthians 12:9
But we don’t (thankfully) and the simple, hard truth of the matter is that this specific area of anxiety and worry is brought on by a heart of un-forgiveness. My biggest fear is spurred on by my stubborn and sinful heart. In my specific case in order to rid myself of a lot of anxiety and worry, I have to simply forgive and move on; But that’s not where it ends. Forgiveness is great but we would all be fools to think that we would never want to pick up the chains of bitterness again. So, when those moments come flooding back to our minds, what then?
You see, I have found that in my case, and in many others, that the root of all worry and mistrust is a sincere and deep lack of faith in God. What our worry tells us is that our picture of God is not adequate enough. We simply don’t see Him for all He is and therefore we must take our problems into our own hands. Do we realize how infinitely pathetic this is? If we really take time to think about it, we should be the ones with a small view of ourselves not God! When we dig down to the very core of our sin we realize that the God of the Universe is strong, gracious, and merciful. Not only is He all of those things but He is sovereign! He knows what He has done, is doing, and will do! The Almighty, Sovereign God of Creation has made our paths, numbered the hairs on our head, and sets us straight. What do we have to fear?
“Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”
This truth came in a very powerful way to me today as I dug for answers. I was desperate to understand my horrid feelings. The simple truth was God never once gives us a spirit of doubt, fear, or worry. He gives us a spirit of joy, confidence, and trust! Nothing is more proof of the Devil’s evil schemes than anxiety. If we were the devil wouldn’t we want to sow seeds of doubt and worry in the hearts of our enemy? It all makes sense!
What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?
So, my encouragement, to myself and to you, is that God (if you have a relationship with Christ) knows where you’re going ,what you’re dealing with, and what to do about it. There is no need for us to take control when the Lord has already “been there, done that.” Simply find peace in God tonight as He speaks to you and cling to His side!
“And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.”