Specter

Hollowed out in the hollows of my heavy heart

Speaking to me in the hallways of my mind

Wreaking havoc, silently tearing me apart

I thought I had left you behind

Nobody understands the weight of your veiled existence

I carry you with me buried in the smile lines

The pain written on my face, your glassy gaze consistent

With the cold shiver trickling down my spine

I wish you’d leave me alone, my old friend

I’m not the man ~~you~~ they say that I am

I wish I could say I was happy to see you again

You laugh as the breath leaves my diaphragm

I’ve been here before, and I’ve lived to tell the tale

But what if this time you win?

I feel heavier now, my lifeblood running stale

Let me up, I won’t lose to you again

For the love of God, God, please

Put to rest this aching wound

Take this specter, this infectious disease

And lay him to rest in his infernal tomb

You are loved.

You are valued.

Confessions