The Honest Truth (Depression, Anxiety, Suicide)

I’ve always been an open, transparent soul. 

Almost to a fault.

Growing up I was always in tune with my inner conscience. I swear to you that I could never get away with anything even if I tried. If there was something I did that was wrong, semi-wrong, or a “it’s better to be safe than sorry” situation I would have been the first one to confess. There is something fine tuned inside of my core that screams against the confines of silence.

Needless to say, 20+ years later nothing has changed. 

Most people would assume that such a characteristic would be plausibly applaudable. Most would say that, though it’s a nagging feature, it would be one to strive for. At least one would think they would…

You see the downfall to being so honest, to being so open about mistakes, feelings, and the inner works of life is that unfortunately, it gets in people’s way…It disrupts their own little bubble of happiness. The massive discrepancy within my kind of personality is that what should be a genuine-friendship filled life ends up being one of the most lonely.

Please, don’t get me wrong. I have many, many wonderful and caring friends who have done so much for me that I could never even think of a way to repay them. I have been blessed with an incredibly selfless family who would give their life for me, and I for them. So I’m genuinely not attacking the majority of people in my life…instead I wish to wage war on the social norms of a technologically driven society. You see, in an effort to become more community driven and “connected”, social media and advancements in technology have taken insanely successful strides in doing so. One could argue that we are the most technologically connected societies that has ever existed. Even with that fact, the majority of people are still lonely.

Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and even this blog provides a safe place to come and hide. They provide a place that shelters everyone from real life issues, from the painful realities of this world. It’s simply a place where people can pick up a new identity and live the life they all wish they could live…free.

The honest truth is that we have never been more chained. Depression, suicide, and self harm still reign as some of the worst issues plaguing human beings…Such issues are plaguing me. The honest truth is that I’ve been drowning in depression for three years. My heart and soul have been drained by the daily grind of fighting anxiety, fear, worry, and loneliness. Here I sit with a dilemma: I live in a world that stresses community and love for one another but I dream of a world that actually follows up with what it says.

The honest truth is that I’m not the only who feels like this. There are hundreds, thousands, maybe even millions that struggle just the same or even worse than I do. Do we feel ok in proclaiming it to the world? No. Why? The world would tell us to pull up our bootstraps, deal with it ourselves, and keep pushing on. While those words may be advisable in some situations, they are not for someone who has no motivation to even get out of bed in the morning. As selfish as suicide may be, can we honestly blame those who do it?

Funny how no one starts listening until you’re dead.

If you have read this blog for any period of time you know that I am an avid believer of Christ and His sacrificial work on the Cross to redeem humans from their wretched sin. Because of this work, because of my faith in it, and because of the sanctifying Grace of God I am being made new. I, and others who have placed their faith in this magnificent truth, are constantly being reshaped and changed into a better, more beautiful picture of Jesus. This is to give us hope; hope that saves and sets free. Unfortunately, that doesn’t mean that we won’t ever struggle. Sad to say that more Christians struggle with depression and loneliness than one may think.

Oh, but we’re so good at playing the game; the game of “I’m ok”. We’re so good at playing “god” and wearing our masks of invincibility when in all reality all of us are one step away from crumbling. I do agree though, that there are issues solvable by our own strength (with the aide of God, of course). What others need to know is that there are people who are truly suffering daily. There are those who have legitimate worries, fears, and anxieties that need to be calmed by the powerful word of God and a true friend.

So I say this to those who are struggling: You are not alone. There is hope and we can make it through this together. Most importantly, there are people who love you! God loves you more than you can ever imagine! I also do and am willing to help as much as I can. As difficult as it is for us to climb out of bed every morning and face the crippling emotions of death, we can do it by the saving Grace of God. Hope is available and His name is Jesus Christ…Run to His arms today. Also, don’t be afraid to talk to someone you trust. Reach out!

I also say this to those who are too good admit their weaknesses and failures: Get your head out of your cellphones, your laptop, and your rear end. There are more important things at stake in this world than how many “likes” you got on your last Facebook post, Instagram picture, or Tweet. There is no satisfaction in an alternate universe. Believe me, I’ve looked and I’ve come up empty every time. Take time today to invest in someone, regardless if they’re hurting or not.

It’s amazing the difference one person could make if they only cared.

Editor’s Note: If you find yourself struggling with any issue today, the author is more than willing to reach out and give a helping hand. Please don’t be afraid to sound off in the comments and let me know or contact me through my Contact Us page up above. Don’t feel like you have to post your concerns in the open unless you wish too. You can leave a comment detailing your desire for help and I will get back to you as soon as possible. These issues are NOT to be trifled with. Don’t hesitate!

4 Replies to “The Honest Truth (Depression, Anxiety, Suicide)”

  1. Very Nice initiative you have here. Thumbs up. Also myself, I am someone who is in the same spot as you. Meditation and mindfulness is what is helping me at the moment. I wish you, myself and everyone who is struggling for some reason that we can find, somehow, anyhow, a way to easy this pain. Be it by finding professional help, or through medication, or through faith, or anything. There must be a way out for sure. Peace.

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      1. Im just recently starting to believe that there is a way out too. It does take time, and it is not easy. But it is possible. And that is what matters. I have a lot to learn too, and now I feel even excited about it. It’s been already almost a week that I don’t have self harmful thoughts. And my eyes tears when as I write this. There is a way out x

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      2. That’s incredible, my friend! I’m so happy for you!! Keep pushing forward and I pray that you continue to find hope! Jesus loves you and sees you as valuable. Don’t forget that! Give your heart time to heal and allow love to wash over you. Do let me know if I can be of any help for you!

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