About two weeks ago I wrote a post called I’ve Worshipped a god that doesn’t Exist and was confronted with the fact that I’ve been doing “Christianity” all wrong. I, like so many other “Christians”, have made a cookie cutter version of God that is appropriate for ourselves. Instead of knowing the real God of the Bible, we’ve made a fancy version of Him which leads us to question everything about Him. If God is so good, why do you bad things happen? Is there such thing as truth? Who is the real God?
These thoughts and revelations prompted me to start writing a new series of posts called Cookie Cutter Christianity. My hope is to dive in to the truth of who God really is according to what the Bible says; no holds barred. I’m not coming from a place of knowing all the answers. I’m coming from a place of wanting to know…Will you journey with me?
This week I want to answer the question: Can He really love me?
Far too often have I found myself drowning in my own weaknesses and failures as a human. It’s so easy for my depression riddled mind to overwhelm my heart with doubts, obscurities, and obscenities aimed at my own soul. My inner heart hates who I am because ultimately the inner part of me hates God.
Yes, I said it. My inner being, the one I was born with, naturally hates God. The Bible says so. Romans 3:11 clearly states that no one seeks after God. No man, woman, boy, or girl, in their natural state seeks God and who He is. We are born with a hatred for all things God.
“…but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8
As we grow up we either come to see His ultimate love for us or our circumstances and troubles persuade us to believe He hates us. We firmly believe that God could never love someone like ourselves. Why would we expect an invisible God to love us perfectly when visible people so often show us hatred? Oh, how easy it is to lay in the bed of death.
I really don’t have any words to comfort you where you are. I don’t know what has brought you to this point in life. I’m sure some of your lives have been a literal hell on Earth. There have been times where I have felt the same. Though we face different circumstances we all face the question posed. Can God really love me?
After all of that I want to say that I think we’re asking the wrong question. It shouldn’t be “Can God really love me?” but rather “Why should God love me?”. Right? I mean what have we done to deserve His love? We all know (I’m assuming) that the Bible says Jesus died for our sins and gives us a way to go to Heaven if we so choose to believe. But why?
The Bible is chock full of verses speaking of God’s love. Christians are so quick to yell “God loves you” from the mountaintop but never tell you why. Can I tell you why? Can I speak to you in your pain as a friend and as someone who genuinely cares?
But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved—” Ephesians 2:4-5
It says that God is rich in mercy. So often we see this picture of God that connotes mean, temperamental, and harsh. We have painted this canvas of life with colors that portray God as dark and evil yet the Bible says the opposite. God is rich in mercy for you.
Why does he have to be rich in mercy? It’s because those very same verses said that we were (are) dead in our trespasses (sin). This means that we have no hope on our own of living in relationship with God. Our sins separated us from this. Our trespasses killed us spiritually. This is why God is rich in mercy. God loves you.
I know that you’re probably thinking that it doesn’t feel like it. Your life events have caused you to question God and everything you’ve ever been taught. Can I say that it’s not God’s fault? Yes, He is in control of all things but it’s ultimately Satan who brought this on you. God doesn’t hate you. He sees you in your pain and is calling out to you. No, we don’t deserve His love. Yes, we are (at our core) wicked and opposed to God from day one. God sees all of this and despite it continues to love us anyway.
“God’s unfailing love for us is an objective fact affirmed over and over in the Scriptures. It is true whether we believe it or not. Our doubts do not destroy God’s love, nor does our faith create it. It originates in the very nature of God, who is love, and it flows to us through our union with His beloved Son. ~ Jerry Bridges”
I know many of you are hurting. I know many of you spend night after night in physical, mental, and spiritual anguish. Life just won’t let up will it? Having been through these nights I can say that God’s love never changes. His mercy is the same for you and me. It doesn’t matter who you are, where you’ve been, or what you’ve done. He loves you whether you believe it or not.
I understand you may not accept this, that’s ok. I understand this may make you angry, that’s ok. I just know that I could not stand to stare at myself in the mirror without showing you why I feel hope.
“God loves you just the way you are, but He refuses to leave you that way. He wants you to be just like Jesus.” – Max Lucado
I doubt God’s love on a daily basis. I’m just like you. There have been times where I’ve hated God but He has shown himself faithful through thick and thin. I come to you hoping that this helps you. I want you to know that you are loved by God.
You are never too far away for God to reach you.
Here’s the next question I will face: Why choose a relationship with Jesus? What does it entail? Is it easy-peezy or difficult?
Leave your comments, thoughts, hearts, questions etc…down below. The goal of this is to explore with me!