I am now writing to you as a college graduate.
A very, very poor college graduate.
But a college graduate nonetheless.
I honestly didn’t have any time these past few days, since Thursday, to soak anything in. I also haven’t touched any form of blogging or social media (other than instagram) since that day as well. I’ve had a lot of family in town since Wednesday and they all vacated the immediate premises on Saturday. It’s been an incredible weekend but it’s left me entirely exhausted.
Friday, the day I graduated, was an incredibly emotional day. I couldn’t help but feel sad, excited, and exhausted all at the same time. I stood amongst all of my friends, draped in our black gowns, and thought “where did the time go?” I couldn’t help but think that it was all a dream.
We entered the auditorium, listened to the proceedings, walked the stage, took in the cheers and our diplomas, then it was all over. That’s it. I’m a college graduate.
I can’t help but feel proud of the accomplishment. Sure, everyone does it and it’s almost cliché but it still happened. My college years came with unique challenges, complications, lessons, and triumphs but I made it nonetheless.
I didn’t want to give a testimony of my time at Piedmont during our graduate luncheon but something inside of me raised my hand and took the microphone. I started to speak and before I knew it I was in tears. I looked down at my parents, the ones who have pushed me to the edge of my abilities, and saw my mother crying. She was the one that pushed me outside of my boundaries and I’m so glad that she did. Her love speaks volumes through her actions, words, and thoughts. I wouldn’t be the man I am today without her constant, selfless love.
If there had to be one thing I’ve learned these last five years, it’s this: God is faithful. For you, those words might seem trivial, shallow, or repeated but for me they contain great depth. I’ve travelled the seas of depression ever since the beginning of my undergraduate career and there was a time I thought death to be acceptable. I’ve experienced an incredible amount of heartbreak and failure but God was always there seeing me through. To you he may be a dictator, vengeful, or even non-existent but to me He is my best friend, my Father, my Creator, and my Sustainer.
College was great. I’ve learned a lot. Book knowledge really only gets you so far, though. It is in the moments of experiential application that one is pushed to the ultimate limits of who they are and what they can be. I’ve found that no greater times of my life have ever occurred outside of those moments. I am who I am today by the grace of God and through the difficult seasons of life. I now press on with the hope and joy of all that I have learned.
I’m also incredibly excited about the future of Confessions. I now have time to pour into this every night! There are many, many things I have bouncing around in my head and I’d love to share just a few with you!
First, I want to say thank you to the incredible response to my recently posted photography collection. I wanted to finish telling my personal story through photograph and I’m so thankful for the response and the people who helped make it possible! If you haven’t seen them, here’s the link: Part I Part II
Secondly, I want to be more of a networking style blogger. I’ve found that the nuance of “give more than you get” to be true, especially within the community of WordPress. With this knowledge in mind, guest posting on this blog will become more of a routine thing. This week’s guest blog will tell the story of a teen who lost his friend to suicide and how he’s coped with that loss. I’m so excited to have him share that story with you!
Lastly, for now, I want to share with you a project that I hope to have done this summer. I’m calling this the “Mental Illness Archives.” I’m busy creating an archive for the site that, as you’ve probably guessed, features a lot of major, minor, and rare mental disorders! Each page will contain a specific disorder, their symptoms, treatments, and statistics! This is going to take a lot of work but I’m so excited to be able to compile this and further our efforts for mental health awareness.
There are so many other endeavors I have in mind but you’ll just have to find out what those are by following Confessions on this site, through Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter (links at the bottom of the page.)
Thank you so much for reading. Drop a comment down below and let’s get to know each other? I’m always looking for new friends. 🙂
Happy Mother’s Day!