I’m Stepping Away from Writing…


I’ve been avoiding writing this article for a while now.  In all honesty, I’ve been unmotivated to do so, and I’ve been battling as to whether or not it’s the right thing to do.

As you may have noticed, I’ve stopped writing in the previous weeks. I’ve published one article in the last fourteen days; and while that may not seem significant to some, it is to me.

I’ve been blogging for two years now and there has rarely been a time where I stepped away for any length of time. School got in the way every once in a while, but I’ve never just stopped producing. My brain has been a constant, churning wheel of ideas. Fast forward to today and I write to you unmotivated and purposeless in my writing.

I’ve been hard at work these last few months trying to reshape and reorganize Confessions. I’ve tried to be more professional in my article pieces, my graphic designing, and my social media presence. I feel as though it had been successful, but one day I hit a brick wall.

I found myself thinking, “What good is any of this?”

You see, in the midst of my churning out ideas, articles, and graphics to accompany them, I got lost in the mix of numerical success. I’ve spent years trying to figure out how to attract the next visitor and I’ve exhausted myself in the process.

I’m tired of trying to get people’s attention.

What it has all boiled down to is this: I’ve burnt myself out. I’ve carried the load of my dreams and vision on my own back for too long without taking a break. I’m mentally tired.

Beyond that, there are situations in my personal life that are weighing me down mentally and spiritually as well. Two of my grandfathers are dying, and as you can imagine, this affects one’s spirit. Add on the numerous other issues I’m trying to deal with and you can probably understand where I am coming from.

When I came to this realization I tried to do some homework. Was what I was thinking “normal?” Should I take a break? What happens to the relationships I’ve built with my friends if I do this? Will I have to start from scratch when it comes to being “seen?”

The answers I found were not easy ones to digest. I’m sure you, as marketers of your own brand and blog, can understand the difficulty in what I was trying to decide. Nobody wants to hurt their momentum, especially in a world as large as ours. The question that kept ringing in between my ears was this:

Would I rather hurt my momentum or hurt the quality of what I’m trying to produce?

With all of that said, I’m stepping away from writing. The reason I put the three dots in the title is because it is not definite. At some point, I will come back and continue pursuing my passion. I can’t live without writing.

I cannot say how long I will be gone, because I am not too sure myself. I plan to take a month away from thinking about the blog. Think of this time as a mental vacation. After that month, I will spend an extended period of time auditing my website, dreaming of a new vision, and working on new articles.

In the meantime, I am committed to finishing out the scheduled guest authors for Finding Who We Are. I have three committed individuals excited to share their story with you and I hope that you will join us on the Wednesdays that they are published. Also, if you are new to Confessions and this is your first post, feel free to peruse the myriad of articles I have available for you! It should keep you busy until I return. 🙂

Outside of that, I will pop in from time to time to read your work and comment. I’m not taking a break from being your friend! However, it may be few and far between. I need to unplug the best that I can and mentally rest.

The only reason I may sound as though I am sad is simply because I hate that I’ve pushed myself to this point. No matter, though, it will be a lesson well learned and something I keep in mind for the future.

Feel free to contact me if you would like to keep up with me! Some of you already do, but I’d love to hear from all of you. Email me at confessionsmalin@gmail.com. That’s my personal email account and I check it daily.

Don’t lose hope. Keep pursuing your passions. Take a break if you need to. Life is full of seasons. It’s ok to go with the flow. 🙂

You are loved.

You are valued.

41 Replies to “I’m Stepping Away from Writing…”

  1. I agree Matthew, sometimes we do need to step back and take a mini break, sometimes a longer break…is also needed. I have experienced burnout in a family law legal case I went through from 2008 to early 2012. Whatever you do, don’t marry a narcissist partner. They are impossible to live with long term, and very difficult to get away from later without being destroyed in the process. But, as I have discovered ‘all things are possible with God’. 🙂
    Talk to you later. Take care.

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    1. Hey Linda,

      It’s so good to hear from you. I appreciate your support! I’m getting ready to resume work on the blog even though I will not begin posting articles again for some time. I’m sorry that you had to go through that. Thank the Lord that He was faithful to bring you through. Take care.

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  2. I am sad to hear this. I just found your blog, and really identify with what you write. But I completely agree with the rest of the comments, stepping back for a bit and focusing on yourself is not the worst thing. When you come back just write for you. Don’t get caught up in the metrics of everything. People will come, you are a great writer. -The Fat Cajun

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    1. Hey there! I’m glad you stumbled on the blog!! It’s unfortunate that you found it right before I stepped away as you said, but it won’t be too long before I return. I definitely resonate with what you’re saying. Writing for myself and writing for stats is a tough line to balance, but definitely one I need to figure out. Thanks for commenting. I’m looking forward to being back and even reading your work too! Take care for now.

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  3. I really understand what you are going to through, and I completely understand you. I am so sorry about your grandfathers ❤
    I know that trying to get attention in social media etc is something what makes you really tired, it has been just like that for me too lately, and sometimes it seems so pointless.
    But I am so proud of you that you are focusing yourself now, and getting your strength back, it good to take care of yourself ❤

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      1. do remember that you are not alone, and talk about your struggles, it always gives a bit comfort ❤
        I have been busy this week, and also really really tired, which is not the perfect combination, but like you said, it could be worse ❤

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      2. Please try to talk, even it is hard… I am sure you find it helpful every time you dare to do it, if you have someone great friend who is really willing to listen ❤ I have been busy, tired, little depressed, but I think the hardest time is now going away, hopeful that Spring is starting to be more balanced now ❤ thank you for caring ❤

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      3. I’m sorry to hear that you have been depressed lately. Don’t rush yourself through it. Sometimes with depression you have to let it run its course. 🙂 Hoping you are doing well! I’ve begun working on the blog again, even though I won’t resume writing full time for another month or so.

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      4. That’s great to hear!!! Day by day, my friend. I am too. It will be slow for the next few months and then I will dive back in. Easter was great. Was able to go camping, went to Church, and got to see some family. How was yours?

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      5. Oh camping sounds great! I visited my grandma, had a beautiful photo shoot (and I think I got new model ❤ ), went to a concert, visited my godson and his family… really nice time, I had a bad migraine though and my back is really giving me hard time, but I don`t care right now ❤

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      6. Migraines and back/shoulder pain is something that I have been dealing a lot all my life, and of course it sometimes gets to me, and sometimes even stops me from working (especially editing), but I have learnt to live with that. 🙂

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  4. Matthew,
    Your thoughtful presence will be missed. I support you stepping away, especially before it becomes a burden. All we can expect is to learn and grow, I hope after some time you can see all that you’ve accomplished here.
    Thank you and good luck as you find what’s next.
    -Brian

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  5. Matthew, I hate that you so feel burnt out. I hope you really don’t put much emphasis on your stats, after all you write for the glory of God, not to please people. But if your passion and heart is elsewhere, by all means, follow those dreams.
    I have enjoyed just how genuinely unique and authentic your posts are. You will be missed, that’s for sure. Whenever you decide to return, the blogosphere will be here with open arms.

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    1. My friend, it’s unfortunate that I have stepped off the path. Ive definitely lost my focus and need to get it back!
      Thank you for your kind words. It’s always a pleasure reading and talking with you! 🙂 I will see you around here soon.

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  6. I understand completely about being burned out and needing to take a break. I am sorry to hear you are dealing with the impending loss of 2 grandpas at once. That alone is enough to make anyone feel depressed. It has to be hard on all family. Add a mental illness to the mix and you have to be feeling everything amplified. That is how I felt when my mom died just 3 years ago. Everything is felt deeply and passionately. I actually moved my blog’s location due to a very demeaning comment about my faith-“Where was YOUR God when my child almost died?” This came from an autistic person, so that made me very angry. Everyone wants understanding and contrary to secular belief, words do carry power. The money thing gets to me as well. I don’t want money to eclipse the passions I have. I’m glad you did not make a permanent decision to leave. That is mature. May God bless you in the midst of adversity and give you grace as you face the impending losses. I will pray for you. Thank you for giving me a voice. I GRATEFULLY APPRECIATE IT!

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