I’ve been avoiding writing this article for a while now. In all honesty, I’ve been unmotivated to do so, and I’ve been battling as to whether or not it’s the right thing to do.
As you may have noticed, I’ve stopped writing in the previous weeks. I’ve published one article in the last fourteen days; and while that may not seem significant to some, it is to me.
I’ve been blogging for two years now and there has rarely been a time where I stepped away for any length of time. School got in the way every once in a while, but I’ve never just stopped producing. My brain has been a constant, churning wheel of ideas. Fast forward to today and I write to you unmotivated and purposeless in my writing.
I’ve been hard at work these last few months trying to reshape and reorganize Confessions. I’ve tried to be more professional in my article pieces, my graphic designing, and my social media presence. I feel as though it had been successful, but one day I hit a brick wall.
I found myself thinking, “What good is any of this?”
You see, in the midst of my churning out ideas, articles, and graphics to accompany them, I got lost in the mix of numerical success. I’ve spent years trying to figure out how to attract the next visitor and I’ve exhausted myself in the process.
I’m tired of trying to get people’s attention.
What it has all boiled down to is this: I’ve burnt myself out. I’ve carried the load of my dreams and vision on my own back for too long without taking a break. I’m mentally tired.
Beyond that, there are situations in my personal life that are weighing me down mentally and spiritually as well. Two of my grandfathers are dying, and as you can imagine, this affects one’s spirit. Add on the numerous other issues I’m trying to deal with and you can probably understand where I am coming from.
When I came to this realization I tried to do some homework. Was what I was thinking “normal?” Should I take a break? What happens to the relationships I’ve built with my friends if I do this? Will I have to start from scratch when it comes to being “seen?”
The answers I found were not easy ones to digest. I’m sure you, as marketers of your own brand and blog, can understand the difficulty in what I was trying to decide. Nobody wants to hurt their momentum, especially in a world as large as ours. The question that kept ringing in between my ears was this:
Would I rather hurt my momentum or hurt the quality of what I’m trying to produce?
With all of that said, I’m stepping away from writing. The reason I put the three dots in the title is because it is not definite. At some point, I will come back and continue pursuing my passion. I can’t live without writing.
I cannot say how long I will be gone, because I am not too sure myself. I plan to take a month away from thinking about the blog. Think of this time as a mental vacation. After that month, I will spend an extended period of time auditing my website, dreaming of a new vision, and working on new articles.
In the meantime, I am committed to finishing out the scheduled guest authors for Finding Who We Are. I have three committed individuals excited to share their story with you and I hope that you will join us on the Wednesdays that they are published. Also, if you are new to Confessions and this is your first post, feel free to peruse the myriad of articles I have available for you! It should keep you busy until I return. 🙂
Outside of that, I will pop in from time to time to read your work and comment. I’m not taking a break from being your friend! However, it may be few and far between. I need to unplug the best that I can and mentally rest.
The only reason I may sound as though I am sad is simply because I hate that I’ve pushed myself to this point. No matter, though, it will be a lesson well learned and something I keep in mind for the future.
Feel free to contact me if you would like to keep up with me! Some of you already do, but I’d love to hear from all of you. Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. That’s my personal email account and I check it daily.
Don’t lose hope. Keep pursuing your passions. Take a break if you need to. Life is full of seasons. It’s ok to go with the flow. 🙂
You are loved.
You are valued.